I am currently overwhelmed. Phew, a lot is going on. Do you ever do that, honestly sit down and look at your plate of your busyness. It's not the best idea if you want to rest easy afterwards. But do I listen to good reason? No.
We are moving in 26 days. I should probably be packing up our life instead of blogging while Knox naps. Jeff is speaking at a camp next week, which means I will be on my own for 5 days...with a 4 month old. We close on the house next Friday. Need to find a babysitter while I'm thinking about it. Knox has his PT appointment in 1.5 weeks in which we will most likely be told he needs to wear an orthotic helmet for his left-sided flatness. So I'll need to fit in an appointment for Orthotics soon. Also found out insurances don't always cover helmets. We are also renovating our new home so currently trying to find painters, floor people, and granite people. These people need to see the property so we have to schedule estimates with our realtor to help us continue to get into the home for them to measure. And all of this takes money that we want to use wisely. I also know I need to be looking for a job in the back of my mind, which means I need to be thinking about childcare too. And above all I am caring for a 4-month old. He's only been around for 17 weeks. I'm still a baby mama who's trying to figure it all out.
These are all wonderful things. "Rich" people things too, I know we are blessed. But its a lot. The world tells us to spin it around and around in our minds while Jesus tells us to rest in today. I can't rest though God, I'm busy remember? Rest Kate, He says again. Rest in today and the fact that you are not alone.
Its actually quite a statement for someone to tell you that you are in fact not on your own. And its an entirely another powerful statement for you to say in return, "I believe you." I think God never leaves us whether we believe or not, but I also believe he wants us to believe in his promise too. I think he knows we need this assurance and it saddens him when we walk as if their are only one set of prints.
I can't get it all done today and that's ok because I was never meant to. Today I'll pack up books, just books, play with Knox, and make pizza for dinner all the while knowing something greater than I is holding my hand and my future.
